Journal #171 – Random Snippets of Thoughts

Thought # 1

It is not the drug that make drug addicts but it is the need to escape reality, the real “world”. The real world is both sad and happy, violent and peaceful, greedy and charitable, and so on and so forth. So full of contradiction and some of us, humans, just couldn’t navigate, even more so in this hyper-connected world.

Thought # 2

Sometimes practicality and pragmatism forces you to ignore what your heart tells you. So you went and do what is practical. Do what is pragmatic. You made a choice and through that choice, you forgot what your heart told you. Over time, maybe over ten years, maybe over twenty, it doesn’t matter, those emotions bubble up and tear you apart from the inside. The longer you ignore that, the more miserable you feel. All in the name of practicality and pragmatism.

Thought # 3

I consume so I create. I am a processor.

Thought #4

Art works are censored because the people doing the censor or allowing the censor to happen are not willing to allow certain truths or another person’s reality to interfere with their own reality or perception. They are afraid.

Thought #5

There is only one truth in life. All of us will die with regret if we don’t do what our hearts tell us to, try new things or have new experiences. Even those who crave stability, security or certainty, should still go and do what you desire to do when that desire come to you. It’s that simple but not easy. You need to ignore that innate nagging that you need to be safe, be secure or be certain. I know because I am such a person. I’m struggling against this nature so that I don’t die with regret. Have a rough plan, put in place some basic safety mechanism (can be money, housing, clothing or food) and go execute that plan.

Thought #6

Being alone in the now is so important. Just like I decided to put away my headphones, stop watching Netflix. And listening to Spotify, and go for lunch alone. I’m sitting here waiting for my lunch to be ready, and I’m just staring at a wall with some sort of painting that has lots writing. It allows me to think, to create ideas, and then I write them down.


Daily Journal – Jun 28, 2017

This is my 88th journal.

For a moment there, I didn’t quite know how I want to start. My personal life has gotten pretty boring in my view as of late. So maybe let me just share some thoughts instead and see how it goes.

There are two kinds of content which I feel need to be improved on, which are necessary to improve readership. On a personal level, I prefer textual stuff. It allows my imagination to run wild. Art works and drawings kind of take that away because you are seeing what the artist want you to see. Get my drift? Though I got to admit that graphical stuff are important when you want to explain a concept or idea.

Sorry about the digression.

So, the first kind of content involves my own daily journal. After all, this my personal blog. I know I need to increase the number of graphical or video-based content instead of textual content. But I think in order to do that, I would need to take more pictures, maybe even take videos. A friend of mine invited me to a musical/performance event. I’m still trying to decide if I want to go or not. Get out of my comfort zone again??? That might be a good chance to practice my photography skills and get some content for this.

Another kind of content is those involving teaching. I mean I have a stronger background in programming, software development and design compare to other skills which I am currently exploring and attempting to learn, namely drawing, cooking, and copywriting. So I suppose I should start doing more content on those.

Anyway, I just want to add that writing a daily journal is about establishing some kind of discipline and routine. Even if just writing a single line saying, “I’m busy”, is as important as writing a multi-paragraph entry.

But these days, I suppose youngsters don’t read. They prefer cat pictures.

Now now, just like that, I have multi-paragraphs and I mentioned that I wasn’t sure how to start in my first paragraph.

For work today, I went to the customer office and conducted SIT. Spent the whole day there. Had lunch by myself, which I usually do on weekends anyway. Though it can be quite a sad thing.

Something of note is that my boss removed me from many of the slack channels that I was on. Kind of a relief in a way. That means that I didn’t need to care so much anymore. I can devote more brain power to other stuff and just do whatever task that’s left.

Remember yesterday I mentioned that I signed up for a drawing course? I forgot to include the link to what I was talking about. So here it is.

The drawing course by Rich Graysonn. I came across it through the Singapore’s SkillsFuture platform where you can sign up for courses to upgrade yourself. It was an initiative by the Singapore government so that Singaporeans are ready to take on the future work.

In my personal opinion, it is a good attempt but in light of a world that will be highly driven by Artificial Intelligence (AI), whatever skills Singaporeans in general will acquire will fall short.

My questions to Singaporeans and the government are very simple: What problem will there be that an extremely advanced AI or robotics can’t solve? What do Singaporeans in general have to offer that people from nations where they are leaders in AI and Robotics don’t have?

The world order will change. United States and China will be the leaders in AI. Their economies will be increasingly driven by that.

In my opinion, seeing how small Singapore is, the lack of local specialists, and that the people here are all about “management”, “outsourcing”, and our population is falling due to low birth-rate, I doubt we can even survive. Smart-nation probably can free up some human resource to do “intelligent” work but there just isn’t enough of us (locals).

Here I conclude my journal for today.