Daily Log #5

I must have been completely worn out because I only woke up this morning at 9.15am instead of my usual 7 or 8. I don’t even remember if I ever did wake up in the middle of the night like I usually do.

After breakfast with my dad, I met up with my friend for a movie marathon starting from 12.30pm. For the movies, we went with Black Panther and Tomb Raider. I have to note that I was almost late. I lost track of time because I was watching some videos online and had to deal with my MacBook not being able to shut down properly. I took a quick shower and made my way to the bus stop. While walking there, the bus came and I had to run. I knew if I missed this bus, I will surely be super late because the next bus is like ten minutes away.

As I have watched Black Panther before, the second time watching the movie meant that instead of understanding the story, it was about engrossing myself into the design and in-movie universe. I wanted to use it to help me write better. There are some elements I thought I could use like their melee-based weaponry based on vibranium. They don’t really use guns. Then there’s the cultural aspect of Wankada.

After we are done with Black Panther, we stopped by a restaurant where I ordered a plate of Fish and Chips for lunch while my friend ordered just a bowl of truffle fries.

This new Tomb Raider movie is definitely better than the original ones starring Angelina Jolie because it focus more on Lara Croft’s development and the act of tomb raiding while solving puzzles that doesn’t rely on guns. The movie is a reimagination of the Tomb Raider 2013 game reboot but doesn’t have the supernatural element to it, which is fine for me.

After the movie, I joined my friend as he wanted to get some rechargeable batteries for his Xbox controller.

Once he’s done, we went our separate way home. I was feeling super tired by now and had to take a nap.

After dinner, I binge watched the remaining episodes of A.I.C.O. Incarnation. The show also gave me some inspiration about how I could write my stories better because of some of the plot devices. I really like the Artificial Organism idea of the show and how it could be used to save lives or ruin lives. I think it could be further expanded to serve other purpose.

And that marks the end of my daily log.


Journal #272

Today, we welcome 2018 and say goodbye to 2017.

What Happened

The phone vibration at around 9am woke me up and I went to check it. It was from my friend who was asking to confirm if I want to eat breakfast before the movie. I agreed to it and asked to meet at 9.30 instead because I just woke up. I needed time to at least prepare myself.

So I took the bus at around 9.15 and went to the mall. Upon arriving, I bought the tickets first and waited for my friend to arrive.

When he arrived, we ate at Ya Kun Family Cafe. I had Mee Rebus and a cup of black coffee. My friend ate half-boiled eggs and toast.

After the breakfast, we went up to the cinema to watch Jumanji. The show itself is pretty funny and I had a good laugh. At least it help take my mind off. Once the movie is over, we went around the mall to look for a place to eat. The Hong Kong restaurant is packed full today. We ended up having our lunch at a Japanese restaurant.

I needed to get a pair of dress shoes and so we went Bata first. Even after I found the pair that I like, there was no one there to serve me (e.g. getting the right size). So instead of wasting time, I decided to go to BHG but couldn’t find any. That led us to Hush Puppies where I found a pair that I like. I asked the sales lady for a suitable size, tried it, and found it pretty comfortable. Paid for the shoes and left for the supermarket where I wanted to get some energy bars to snack on during my reservist.

With everything that I want to get in my hands, my friend and I parted way and went home.

I decided to write the journal early because later at night I need to be at a relative’s birthday party and I don’t know what time I will get home. Personally, I have no desire to be there. It’s a waste of my time and I am never really close to any of my relatives. But because my dad promised to go, we go. He just doesn’t like to break his promises or lose face.

How I feel

I still feel pretty depressed and tired in general. The tired part most likely stemmed from the depressive state. And I also feel unhealthy. I haven’t been eating healthily or doing any decent exercise.

Journal #265

Merry Christmas to everyone and today I got to spend a vast majority of my time outside of my house. This was necessary for my mental well-being. Staying at home for the whole day was just bad overall and detrimental to my inspirations and content creation.

What happened

I had a quick shower and had Subway for breakfast before meeting up with my friend at Jurong Point to catch Star Wars: The Last Jedi at 10.40am. I won’t say the movie was particularly interesting for me and the length of it made it a drag to watch through.

After the movie, we went to the Legendary Hong Kong restaurant as usual. I ordered Red Bean Ice for my drink.

Then Seafood Fried Rice with XO Sauce as my main meal.

I also ordered a rice noodle roll with Shrimps in soy sauce but I didn’t take any picture of that.

It’s not the best Hong-Kong style food that I have eaten. It’s just familiar.

After that, we walked around the mall before I left to meet another friend to go to the Prudential Carnival in downtown Singapore.

Turns out, I wasn’t really into carnivals because I just don’t like rides. So we just watched people screaming their lungs off on those rides and left early. We decided to go to another carnival also by Prudential and came upon the Red Dot Design Museum along the way.

That caught my attention and I wanted to go in instead. We got the tickets and went in. I found myself attracted by the various designs and ideas people have about urban living, user experience, and daily appliances.

Here are some random photos that I took to show you what I am talking about. Some of the photos are not really in focus because they were taken quickly. I just wanted to capture the ideas.

After we are done, we went to have some drinks at the cafe within the museum to use up the coupons that we got alongside the museum ticket. I ordered an iced Mocha, which turned out to be pretty good while my friend ordered bottled water.

Then we went to Esplanade and have dinner there. My friend suggested eating at Supply and Demand because of the Truffle Fries, which he said was very good.

I ordered a bottle of Erdinger Weissbier, which got poured into a Weizen glass

It went along with grilled fish of the day with two sides prepared in accordance to the chef’s wishes.

And the main highlight of the day are the Truffle fries, given the emphasis my friend put on it.

Spreading throughout the day was my activity of playing Sky Force: Reloaded on my iPhone, chatting with my friend, and looking for jobs.

How I feel

Throughout the day, there were various feelings depending on what I read, experienced or seen. My primary operating mode revolves around my feelings and my outputs are based on how I channel my feelings.

The commentary: Of course we don’t read poetry. We’re Singaporean published on Channel NewsAsia got me pretty upset at the state of art in Singapore though I know there are good Singaporean artists out there.

Going through the exhibits at the design museum got me to think about the state of design in Singapore. It was another thing that got me feeling despondent. Despite Singaporean children going through Design and Technology in school, almost no one end up becoming an industrial designer like Jonathan Ive or James Dyson.

The above two feelings are related to how I see the economy of the future is going to be primarily all about creation and producing original or innovative stuff with your skills backed up by great service and I’m not sure if Singapore is ready given the current state of affairs.

As I was going home, I also don’t feel like going to work tomorrow. And feeling a deep sense of trepidation regarding my upcoming reservist training, which is in a week’s time.

Other than the above stuff, I’m feeling good. It’s definitely better than yesterday since I’m not coop up at home, got to see stuff, and eat nice food (not the healthiest).

What am I watching now

I’m enjoying music by Madeon, a French DJ and music producer. I’m watching an old video of him performing live as I’m writing this journal.

I have grown to enjoy his music a lot and the tendency to put them on loop.

Being grateful

I’m grateful for friends that chose to hang out with me.

Journal #263

I was so tired that I slept until nearly 10am today.

What Happened

Other than waking up slightly later than usual, I didn’t do anything productive. I spent my time watching some shows on Netflix. One particular show that I decided to watch was The Indian Detective for about three or four episodes, followed by a horror movie called Temple. In between, there was a mixed of watching some YouTube videos.

After the shows, I decided to go for a run but I didn’t go far. First of all, earlier this week, I was pretty sick and now I’m still dealing with its after-effect. So that affected my breathing quite a little. Running through the streets with smokers (yes, again. Even I rolled my own eyes writing about this) caused me to suffer overall discomfort of my throat and nose, making it harder for me to breathe. So I stopped running.

After the run, I showered, read some articles online and go out with my family for dinner at Jurong East. We had western food. I ordered a Salmon pizza with Tuna Salad. Then I went to get a cup of iced Americano from Starbucks and joined my family walking around IMM.

At around 1030pm, we made our way home and that was it.

How I feel

Though, I’m struggling to narrow my feelings down today, I do know I’m feeling a little depressive for no particular reason. I also kept to myself for most of the day, focusing on my thoughts. You can call it being stuck in my own head.

It’s precisely because of this depressive state, it took a longer amount of time before I actually got down to writing.

What the plan?

Since it’s already almost midnight as I’m still writing this and have too much coffee (I don’t mind), I will watch a movie and write some more stuff.

Being Grateful

I’m grateful for my family and every occasion that we are together.

Journal #225 – Consuming too much

Alright, I admit it.

I have been consuming far too much these few days. I ran out of inspiration to write anything proper. My short story remains stuck.

At work today, I spent the whole day trying to figure out how to get ClickOnce to work and figuring out why it didn’t work. The application refused to start. It finally worked partially after I figured it out. You know, the task is actually rather simple and shouldn’t take the whole day but I got bored. I do get bored every easily when I have to deal with configuration-related stuff.

I know when you are a software engineer you do need to configure stuff: Configure your IDE, configure your machine. And when you are not configuring? You are installing stuff.

But I hate configurations. I hate installation. I prefer text. I prefer code.

So what do I do when I’m bored? I consume. I spent a lot of my time on Facebook, Twitter and Medium just consuming article, one after another.

After that?

The other day I mentioned I bought tickets to Justice League. The movie was today. So I met up with my friend after work for dinner and then watch the movie. It was a two hour plus movie. I didn’t feel particularly excited about the movie. Nor do I feel particularly bored by the movie. It’s just is.

Maybe I’m jaded somewhat.

Maybe I’m depressed.

It doesn’t matter.


Tomorrow I got some personal stuff to take care of. And I hope I could use the chance to rest up some more and get some inspiration for my short story.

Honestly, I’m just disappointed with myself…

Journal #213 – Chill weekend, hanging out with friends

Somehow despite being a weekend, I found myself awake at around 8am.

So instead of continuing to lay in bed, I got up, have a quick breakfast consisting of oatmeal, a cake roll and then some coffee made from Starbucks’ instant coffee.

After that, I went ahead to play Everspace until my second breakfast at 10.30am and I went back to play the game until 12pm before I meet my friend for a meal at The Sushi Bar.

I ordered the small Kaisen Chirashi Don instead of the regular-sized one because I knew I wasn’t that hungry but had to eat something.

We also ordered the Aburi Salmon rolls.

After the meal, we went to the Apple Store. I was hoping to get the book, Designed by Apple in California. Turns out they don’t have the book in store, and I will need to order online and get it delivered to me. I also get to see the physical iPhone X but I don’t feel particularly excited over it. To me, it’s just another phone.

You may be wondering why I want to get that book. My intention is to study and appreciate the design of Apple products over the years. I personally don’t have firsthand experience with Apple products released before 2015 and don’t see the point of getting them physically. I don’t want to be a hoarder of Apple products. That’s so not minimalistic.

After that we made our way to Suntec City where there is a Consumer Electronic Fair. We just walk around the fair, looking at products without actually buying anything.

After that, we went to have dinner at Pasarbella. I ordered the Good Catch burger with truffle fries and a yam-based smoothie.

The burger itself was decent but the fries, were soggy. I supposed it’s because they left it exposed to air after deep frying for a while before serving.

The smoothie on the other hand was actually not bad.

After the dinner, we went home, making our way to the train station.

Then this caught my eye.

At first, this advertisement about Panadol to me reminded me about my constant need for painkillers earlier this year because my work is stressing me out and I couldn’t wind down. I felt like this advertisement espouses the idea that people should work so hard until they are encouraged to take painkillers.

But I hope that’s not the message people take away. Don’t rely on drugs to help you go through your work day. It’s not worth it.

Anyway, half way through on the train journey, we decided to watch Jigsaw. We stopped at Jurong East and watched the movie.

I think the movie was quite alright and it has been a long time since I last watched a movie featuring jigsaw. I think the last movie I watched was Saw 3.

After the movie, I thought about going for a run because I didn’t do any over the week but the heavy rain caused me to re-think it. I will do it tomorrow either in the morning or mid-afternoon. I do have a wedding dinner to attend in the evening and I will use that chance to catch up with some ex-colleagues there.

Journal #196 – Chilling on Diwali with some work and movie

Today is Diwali, is a festival celebrated by Hindus, Skikhs, Jains and Newar Buddhists, and also a public holiday in Singapore.

I woke up quite early today, specifically set my alarm clock to go off at 7.30 am, because I was meeting my friend at Jurong Point for a movie called Chasing the Dragon, starring Andy Lau and Donnie Yen. I reached the mall at around 9.35am to have my breakfast of Subway there and then proceed to buy the tickets for the 10.45am show at around 10.10am.

Then I just waited for my friend to arrive. We waited for the next half an hour before entering the theater hall. Once in there, we spent the next 2 hours in it.

After that, we went to the Legendary Hong Kong restaurant in the mall to have our lunch.

My friend ordered the egg tarts and custard buns. He ate all the buns and two of the egg tarts while I took the last piece.

I also ordered the steamed shrimp dumplings. Today’s dumplings were poorly prepared as the skin of the dumpling was like sticking to the surfaces.

For my main meal, I ordered egg fried rice with diced luncheon meat. For those unfamiliar, it’s also known as Spam meat.

After that, I paid for the meal first before my friend paid me his share of the meal and for the movie. Then we went our separate way.

I chose to walk home from the mall, and enjoy the blazing afternoon sun. I deliberately chose to walk slowly home, listening to Doom (2016) soundtrack by Mick Gordon on Spotify.

On the way home, I stopped by Watsons near my apartment block, and bought some toiletries and fish oil supplements. While I was in the store, the salesperson/cashier kept asking me to sign up for their membership, buy some of the items on sales, etc. I rolled my eyes in my mind and kept saying, “No thank you.”

Come on, I’m a minimalist, I only buy what I need to buy and that’s it.

After that, I went home, settled down, switched on my MacBook, rented Transformers: The Last Knight on iTunes and spent the next two hours plus watching it.

I won’t say the movie is that particularly good or bad. It’s just a movie that I don’t think spending $10 to watch it in the cinemas is a good option. I rented the movie for half the price at $5.

After that, I did some light programming work for my client, fixing several, really tiny bugs. Sent an email to my client to clarify some stuff and that was it.

Throughout the night, I just went about doing minor stuff. I went to collect my washed clothes and put them in my wardrobe, prepared my science news round up, browse the web, updated my iPad Pro to iOS 11.0.3, had dinner, and writing this journal.

I also had to deal with the ding made by my neighbor kids downstairs with all the popping stuff. Well, they are Hindu and today is Diwali. All expected but doesn’t mean I like the noise.

I think I probably will just spend the rest of the day consuming more content because today it’s simply a lazy day.

And I’m content.

Journal #193 – Chill Sunday with movie

After resting for most of Saturday and taking my medication, I felt better today. With that, I decided to spend some time to watch Netflix in the morning and asked my friend if he wanted to watch Blade Runner 2049.

He agreed and so we picked the 2.50pm show. I booked the tickets online, watched more Netflix, and meet my friend for lunch at 1.30pm.

For lunch, we ate at the Legendary Hong Kong restaurant but for me, even though I felt better, it doesn’t mean I have that big of an appetite to eat.

I ordered BBQ Pork with Roasted Pork rice but I couldn’t finish it. Half way through, I was feeling very bloated and I stopped eating. I didn’t want to push myself further until the point where I need to vomit.

After lunch, we went window shopping around the mall before entering the cinema.

The movie lasted more than 2 hours and my butt actually hurts from sitting for so long. Had to adjust myself from time to time towards the end.

I actually enjoy the slower pace of story telling with Blade Runner 2049. It allowed me to focus on enjoying the dystopian atmosphere, the character development, especially that of Ryan Gosling’s character. There were some action scenes which were decent, not too flashy like Star Trek, Star Wars, and the likes. But I think the main draw of the show was how it developed the story slowly and doesn’t feel rushed like most science fiction shows these days. The neo-noir added a certain flair or tension to the show. I also found myself asking certain questions like how humans are able to breathe if the ecosystems of Earth has been totally destroyed. How is oxygen produced? And if humans in the Blade Runner universe able to spread themselves across 9 planets, why are they recycling the massive waste that is outside the main city, which is Los Angeles. Overall, definitely a 5 out of 5 for me.

After the movie, my friend and I made our way home.

For me, I had some water as I was extremely thirsty before going for a quick jog of 3.8 km around my neighborhood. I didn’t do a 5 km as I didn’t want to overexert myself.

Journal #178 – Outing with Friends

Early this morning, I went out to meet my friends for a buffet lunch at a restaurant called 10 at Claymore, Pan Pacific Hotel. The purpose of this outing was to catch up, have some fun, and also in a way, celebrate my friend and my birthday. Our birthdays are just one day apart in October.

I would say it was a mixed cuisine buffet with Japanese, Western, and some Singapore dishes. From where I am sitting, I would say, I don’t think it’s very popular but then the ambience is pretty alright.

This is what is on my desk.

The restaurant attempts to be a fine-dining location but I don’t think the utensils are correct. I would say it’s nice that we get a cup of ice water first.

As for the food, there is some varieties and I went for the sashimi first.

I know, it doesn’t look very appetizing. The condiments, fake wasabi and soy sauce, I just took very little. It’s all about the intentionality and conservation. If I don’t need it, why should I take more?

The fish slices themselves are decent in terms of quality. They do have the firmness, not too soggy-like or have any fishy smell. But I have tasted better.

Then when it comes to the entree (not even sure if I should call it that), I also took very little. Very intentional with what I want to eat.

A couple of lamb slices, lamb satay, some grilled potato wedges, and half of a duck drumstick. With the exception of the potato wedges,

I did went for a second serving (no photo) consisting of three lamb slices, a few mouthful of fried kway tiao, two dim-sum shrimp dumplings, and two shumai, two slices of extremely salty smoked salmon and two slices of pork pepperoni.

I skip all the carbohydrates in this section. I don’t think it’s such a good idea to be eating so much carbohydrates at a buffet.

Then I went for a bowl of laksa.

The laksa was decent, not terrible or good. Just average.

After that, I took six slices of salmon belly sashimi, and two slices of watermelon and papaya respectively. I spent most of my time chatting with my friends, sharing my thoughts.

Guess what’s the final price?

Each of us pay $56.

I know what you are thinking if you read through all that. It’s a buffet and why the hell am I taking so little? And it’s so expensive!

Each of us adopted a stance with regards to buffets.

One said: I eat all I can
Another said: I eat all I want
Me: I eat all I need

I know what will happen to me if I take a lot and eat a lot. I will feel sick and I will waste food. I don’t want that and I see that happening so often in Singapore. It happened to my first friend. He felt bloated with some discomfort.

People waste food and they take just because they can. In Singapore, we are one of the few nations with the most waste food. This just show Singaporeans in general are pampered, wasteful, and lack gratitude.

After that, my friends and I went to the Apple Store at Orchard Road to shop around. While I’m there, I wanted to buy the AirPods so badly but I walked out of the store empty-handed. Why? Because I knew I don’t need it. I want it just so that I can complete my Apple collection. I also know that completing the collection doesn’t add value to my life. I don’t get any more joy from it then what I already have as I’m grateful for them.

After that, we went to Orchard Central to just walk around and help us with burning some calories before we went to watch the movie, Ninjago.

When the movie started, my friends and I were kind of surprised to see Jackie Chan and we wondered if we entered the right theater. I know Jackie Chan had another movie call The Foreigner and they were both released in Singapore around the same time. We double checked and yes, we are in the right theater. Jackie Chan was simply the narrator.

The movie itself was not that good. I give it maybe a 2.8/5 stars. The first lego movie was good because it was fresh and I don’t have any expectation of it. But as more lego movies are made, the quality dropped. It is just like how companies milk their franchises for more money and the quality just isn’t there anymore. Some examples are companies like Electronic Arts, Ubisoft and Activision milked their respective franchises dry. This is why I decided to stop buying their games all together.

After the movie, we made our way home, dropping by Jurong Point for dinner first. We had ramen but my friends aren’t exactly hungry. For me, I am hungry. Part of it was due to my gastritis.

Now you see? The choices you make even when it comes to food affect the rest of your day.

I also keep nagging at my friends to use payment apps and stop handling cash. Finally one of them installed DBS Paylah, an app developed by DBS Bank for the purpose of it being an e-wallet and uses QR Codes to send or receive payment. It stop the hassle of handling cash. So if you want to go out with me, please go cashless. I don’t handle or process cash unless absolutely necessary.

That’s all for now.

Here I conclude my journal for today.