Journal #129 – Supposed to be a chilling Sunday

There isn’t much for me to update for today.

I spent most of my morning and early afternoon playing Assasin Creed and Watch Dogs 2. I was having a tension headache for most of the day caused by my extensive time in front of a screen.

Then I went for a run with my new running shoes. I wanted to run for 10km. So the moment I start, the running experience felt different from when I was wearing my Adidas shoes, which was meant to be light, airy, and for runners with normal feet. Although the shoes were heavy, it felt comfortable wearing it. Running in them felt like my feet were properly supported and my joints didn’t felt very painful. I was able to run faster in them.

Until…
At around 5.30km mark, my left feet hurt extremely bad at where the arch of my feet is. It felt like the tendons in my feet are being pulled apart. So I stopped running and walked instead. A brief googling revealed that it could be Plantar fasciitis. While walking, or when waiting at the traffic light, I shifted my feet around in my shoe until I hit the right angle where it stopped hurting when I walked. I cut the run short and since it was raining anyway, I decided to go home at 6.15km mark.

So at home, when I took out my shoes, I realized that my left shoe was more loose than my right. I suspect it could be because I didn’t tighten my shoe properly that lead to over-pronation during the run.

Anyway, until dinner, it was just me watching YouTube video and then I decided to rent a movie called Train to Busan on iTunes. I only watched the first quarter of the show before it’s dinner time.

The dinner was home-cooked pasta with tomato sauce, prawns, and hotdogs but the mood of the dinner was kind of ruined half way. It also ruined my mood to watch the movie.

Now, I don’t write this kind of thing here but then it’s the kind of situation that I have to deal with every other day at home. Have been dealing with that since I was little but then it doesn’t mean it isn’t stressful.

Come to think of it, the situation I faced every other day at home also serve as a great example of why personal development, especially on the EQ side, and self-awareness is so important. It doesn’t matter if the situation is with family, professional, or friends but if you lack those two, you pretty much ruined any relationship that you have. And these two topics are why I restarted my blog in the first place. I wanted to document my daily journey, what I have encountered, and my thoughts.

I’m not saying I don’t have any flaws since I’m a work in progress. I’m not an empath but I have more self-awareness now, which opened up new opportunities. I also know when I got a problem and it is affecting my relationship with my friends or co-workers.

So the situation at home revolves around my dad. I dare say he lacks the EQ. If he had, he won’t be so sensitive and snapped at family members at the slightest of comments about lifestyle or him. Then he will get somewhat physical, doesn’t matter if it’s against persons or objects. I don’t know if he is aware that his behavior pretty much ruin the atmosphere and mood at home, and raise cortisol levels across. Now even if he is aware, it does look like he doesn’t even to try to improve. From time to time, it feels like he’s treating the family as a punching bag. That’s also why my relationship with him is cool, not neutral, or warm.

Yes, this is me doing an audit of one of my family members. It’s part of how you can improve your life. If I take a step further, it means to excise the toxicity, which is hard to do when it comes to family.

Of course people can say that as family, we should work to improve each other. But then this is a traditional Chinese family, where the father is the head of the family and doesn’t like being challenged by underlings. If you challenge him, you get snapped at and suffer verbal abuse. I already had enough of that so in this case I think only his peers of roughly the same age can help. It’s just like how my friends helped me or mentored me.

Now I’m just making assumptions here, but I would think that it’s much easier for me to work with someone with Asperger’s or high-functioning autistism.

Anyway, that’s all for now.

Here I conclude my journal for today.

Daily Journal – Aug 8, 2017

This is my 124th journal.

I woke up earlier today without alarm clock at around 0900hrs. Watched some YouTube video from my favorite youtubers , had a quick morning shower, and then joined my mom to go eat chicken porridge at Jurong West hawker centre.

While eating, I was sweating like mad because I have been eating in air-conditioned environment often. My mom was saying that I have pampered myself too much already. Yeah, I agree. That’s what happen when you feel like a millionaire (not an actual millionaire).

After eating, I had a craving for fried carrot cake and so my mom went to get it. It took more than 15 minutes before it was ready. During that time, the sky started pouring down and my mom forgot to bring in the laundry before we went out. So that’s that.

When my mom finally came back, it was in a packed form. Apparently, the person preparing the food didn’t hear what my mom said about eating in. It didn’t matter as I decided to eat it at home. Then we went to the wet market to get some fishball and egg noodles.

After that we went home. At first we wanted to board bus number 99 but there were a lot of people. So happened that bus number 502 also came and we took that instead. Well, I was under the assumption that the bus will stop at our apartment block but upon checking the details of the bus route, I realized our mistake.

But it’s all good. We alighted at the a mini-shopping mall near our house and went to the supermarket instead. Got more stuff before we made our way home.

Along the way, and running from the rain, I came across two really cute and beautiful cats. I love cats so much, especially when they are all fluffy.

So I went to pet the one of the cats on the head before joining my mom and making our way home.

Upon reaching home, I ate the fried carrot cake and I found it pretty tasty but can’t beat the one that I ate at Ang Mo Kio hawker centre.

After that, brushed my teeth again and I drank some Earl Grey. Then I went to play Cities Skylines for the remaining of the day until dinner time at around 2030hrs. Along the way, my mom went out with my sister to see the doctor as my sister was feeling sick. Then my mom did tried to call me but because I was wearing earphones, playing games, I didn’t know my phone rang. So I missed it. Apparently, my mom wanted to ask me what I wanted to eat for lunch. End up she got me two big meat buns. Ate that for lunch and continue playing.

Here are some night shots of my city:

In the game, I made some rather drastic changes to the roads to ensure optimal traffic flow. I changed the roundabouts and used highways-type roads to force traffic to move in a certain way, taking advantage of the in-game road properties.

For the night, I went to watch a YouTube video by Gary Vaynerchuk. In a way, he’s an inspiration to me and serve as a constant reminder to me that I should continue to be myself and do the things that I enjoy in my own way.

Why the need for reminder? Well, I am someone who has the tendency to emulate or be someone else, is an introvert, and score very high on neuroticism of the five factor model. Since I tend to get overwhelm very easily, I have to learn and practice to do things at my own pace, which I tend to forget or when I feel like I should meet someone else’s expectations.

I have also been watching videos and reading up on High Sensitivity and Elaine Aron’s research. Somehow, I feel like I have some traits of a highly sensitive person. I get hangry, is ticklish, never quite like physical contact with another person, and prefer to work in a dark room or in a cubicle. But then I am rarely in tune with emotions of other people. So I don’t know whether I’m a HSP or is just a neurotic introvert.

Here I conclude my journal for today.

Daily Journal – Aug 5, 2017

This is my 121st journal.

I didn’t do much today except spending most of my waking hours playing Cities: Skylines. I managed to fix the traffic issues and got my city population growing again. Tax income has now stabilized and that the commercial zones can get their goods now. What I did was simple. Creating a cargo train network that spanned the whole city with support from cargo ships.

Later in the evening, I went for a 8km run. Wanted to do 10km but then I felt that I should let my joints recover as they still hurts when I run. I still hadn’t got around to get the new shoes yet as I have some budget constraint this month. I mean, I didn’t quite want to spend the money since I’m technically not employed full-time.

Had my dinner and off I went to watch Dark Matter (TV Series) and Killjoys (TV Series).

That’s all for now.

Here I conclude my journal for today.

Daily Journal – Aug 4, 2017

This is my 120th journal.

I woke up this morning at around 0730hrs feeling very groggy. Didn’t really want to get up for the day, I went back to sleep. I woke up again at around 0900hrs and I still don’t feel ready to get up, so back to sleep I went.

I finally couldn’t sleep anymore and was wide awake at around 1000hrs. Noticed that my mom wasn’t at home. I went and finished my morning routine. Then I took an omeprazole pill for my erosive gastritis before I ate my breakfast of instant oatmeal and two slices of bread with tuna spread half an hour later. Then I went and lazed on my bed and used my phone for a bit before I went for a quick shower at around 1110hrs.

My mom came back with my brunch at around 1115hrs and asked me if I wanted to eat. I told her that I would bring it to work instead. Got out of the shower and prepared the things I need for work, took my packed brunch, and out of the house I went. I also took 10 ml of magnesium triplicate as I was feeling my gut rumbling, which simply meant that the acid was attacking my stomach wall.

I reached the client’s office at around 1215hrs after getting StarBucks. Yeah, I know coffee is a bad choice of drink for people with gastritis but then I can’t do without black coffee.

I ate my food first and chatted with one of the staff there. Got my MacBook out and started browsing the net, reading news article and checking my twitter. Before I knew it, it was close to 1420hrs and I got started to do some work. Yeah, I wasn’t feeling the mood to do work. The manager came back from her gym session at around 1430hrs and I clarified with her on some stuff. Then I went to do more coding before I surf the net again and chit chat.

Continued to do some more work at around 1600hrs and lasted until 1730hrs before I decided to call it a day. I left the client office at around 1830hrs, used the washroom and off I went.

At 1840hrs, the station at Raffles Place was still surprisingly crowded but when I boarded the west bound train of the east-west line, was genuinely surprised to see a decently empty train.

On the journey back, I played Plague Inc. on my phone. Yes, I actually spent S$4.50 buying the game from the app store. Other than Cities: Skylines, Plague Inc. is one of simulation games that I do enjoy playing. Admittedly, I had a hard time with the bioweapon strain. I couldn’t infect enough people before the cure is completed and deployed. If anyone go any suggestion, let me know down in the comments below.

Upon reaching home, I showered and had home-cooked Lor Mee for dinner. While eating, I watched episode 8 of the Planet of the Apps.

I also tried to do some research as to why my Java application is encountering an issue where getting a SQL connection is so slow. I noticed it was the case ever since I upgraded my Mac OS to Sierra 10.12.6 with VirtualBox 5.1.22 with Windows 10 guest. It was still the same when I upgraded to Virtualbox 5.1.26 with Windows 10 guest patched with the Creators Update. If anyone got any idea why please also let me know down in the comments below. I’m very close to actually spending the money to get a Intel NUC just to host the MS SQL Server 2014.

For the rest of the night, I think I will try to do some more work on my client’s application. If I can, I will also prepare another entry for my blog focusing on technology news.

Now, here is a video about building a super compact gaming PC, which is something that I’m considering of doing to fulfill my desire to do minimalist high-end gaming.

Here I conclude my journal for today.

Daily Journal – Jul 30, 2017

This is my 115th journal.

Woke up at around 1030hrs as usual and went about my morning routine.

I actually spent most of today playing Cities: Skylines until the point where I don’t feel like playing it anymore. LOL. Bored or burnt out from playing the game? Anyway, I was having problems with the traffic and I wasn’t sure how to fix it.

Also went for a 5km run to counteract my lack of activity today. My legs are still hurting. Time to get a new pair of running shoes. After the run, I went to get a waffle with red bean paste.

Spent the night watching Dark Matter season 3 and Killjoy season 2 and then switch to watching some YouTube video.

Tomorrow I shall go to my client’s office to do some work.

Before I end the journal, you guys probably know that I’m on the path to minimalism and here is a video of an interview with Joshua Fields Millburn that I think would be good for those who like to join me on this minimalist journey.

Here I conclude my journal for today.

Daily Journal – Jul 29, 2017

This is my 114th journal.

0930hrs. I’m awake and went about my morning business.

Played a couple hours of Cities: Skylines.

Met my friend for lunch, accompanied him to check if his tailored shirts and pants are ready. Then we went to Sim Lim Square to do window shopping.

We also went to Bugis + because I got a craving for ice cream. Upon reaching there, the Gelare store was packed. So gave up. We made our way to the Challenger flagship store to look at drones.

Found myself liking the Mavic Pro drone. It looked pretty slick. But the cost is rather prohibitive. I shall wait until I start my new job before buying.

Then we made our way home.

I went Starbucks and got a venti-sized Ice Americano before walking home.

By now, my legs are hurting badly and I’m limping. I think I inured myself during the 10km run and I didn’t really do any stretching.

Upon reaching home, I decided to play cities skylines again. But this time I was attempting to recover from the mistakes I made with regards to the traffic. However, no matter what I do, my population keep dropping, my tax income keep dropping and majority of my commercial centers and factories couldn’t get material.

I gave up playing at around 2345hrs and got down to write this journal. After publishing the journal, I will call it a night.

Here I conclude my journal for today.

Daily Journal – Jul 26, 2017

This is my 111st journal.

Slept at 0200hrs and woke up around 1030hrs. Went through the morning routine, has breakfast and decided to play a few hours of Cities:Skylines.

Previously I mentioned something about my city was having severe traffic issue and that the commercial zones are not getting the goods from the factories. I managed to fix it by adding more six-lane road linking the commercial zones with the factories and converting two-directional roads into one one-directional. This force the traffic to move in certain direction, therefore optimising the routes.

My city was also suffering from massive deficits in terms of tax to expenses. So I raised the taxes for all zones to 11%. Now with the commercial zone mostly getting their goods and higher tax, my city treasury now is adding money instead of bleeding money. I will continue to tweak my city to improve things and maybe experiment with some stuff.

I have also grew my city in size by adding more residential, commercial, and office zones. You can see the screenshots showing the difference. Although they are taken from different perspective, if you looked close enough, you can see what’s different.

This is a before screenshot.


This is the after screenshot.


Later in the afternoon, I went for the appointment with the hospital for psychology review. It was to determine if I was indeed suffering from bipolar disorder. The conclusion was that I wasn’t suffering from bipolar. Good thing. Now I just need to work with my psychiatrist on the depression and monitor my mood swings until the next review in three months time.

Later in the evening, I met with my friend for a movie, War for the Planet of the Apes. Before that, we had dinner at Sushi Tei. I can’t say the same for my friend but for me, it has been quite a while since I last ate there. Upon walking in, I noticed that there were iPads for diners to make and confirm their orders. That itself is a good thing. It helps save time and definitely make everything more convenient rather than waiting for the staff to take order.

As for the movie itself, I will give a quick review and will try not spoil the movie for you. I found it quite watchable but not to the point where I would re-watch it. There was a decent amount of action scene, character building, and some emotional scene. The movie ended with a bang followed by a decently happy ending. I give the movie a 3.5 out of 5 stars.

After that, my friend and I made our way home.

Here I conclude my journal for today.

Daily Journal – Jul 17, 2017

This is my 104th journal.

Early in the morning, instead of going to work first, I went to ST Electronics to sign my employment contract. I will start my new job on Sept 04, 2017. The contract last two years and I shall see if I like the new job. Maybe it’s irrelevant? Cause having a job is just a means to an end and that is I don’t starve to death and/or end up living on the streets.

Life to me now is all about me spending time doing the things that I enjoy. That means reading, watching shows, gaming, and writing. Software or application development is work and is just a fucking job. As long as at the end of every month or the work I do I get a paycheck, I’m good.

After signing of the contract, I went to work. First thing in the morning was to fix some issues that my colleague encountered with the Kong API Gateway as well as the custom API Management Portal.

Then another colleague and I had a discussion on the SIT issues.

After that, we went for a decently early lunch. Then, three of us made our way to the customer office for a meeting and some discussion.

I left the customer office at around 1745 and made my way home.

Anyway, I have been thinking. If I’m gonna spend majority of my time using Windows to do my work in the future, then I don’t want any Windows machine at home. Unlike most people, I have trouble switching off mentally from work without an actual physical reminder. So I will move my gaming to Mac and PS4. Besides, Apple announced support for external GPU over Thunderbolt 3, it may serve as a compelling platform to do gaming. If not, well, I can always get an iMac pro or a maxed out iMac for my gaming needs. So I think I will dismantle my current Windows PC.

With that, I will continue to play Cities: Skylines.

Here I conclude my journal for today.

Daily Journal – Jul 16, 2017

This is my 103rd journal.

As before, I will split this journal into two parts.

July 15, 2017

I went to bed at around 0400hrs and woke up at around 1100hrs to a rainy morning. Did my morning routine and powered on my desktop to play some games. Had my breakfast of fried noodle, hash brown and Chinese sausage.

I played Cities: Skylines for the next few hours until I lost track of time. I was spending quite a lot of time on building up my cities and dealing with the repercussion of me making mistakes.

Had a meeting with my friends at 1630hrs and we planned to eat at the Man Man Unagi restaurant located at 1 Keong Saik Road, #01-01, Singapore 089109. You can get there by taking a train to Outram Park station.

When we got there at around 1720hrs, the queue was already pretty long. We joined the queue. Here is the entrance, after the first batch of people went in.

We chatted and we only managed to get into the restaurant at around 1915.

Our drinks came first and all of us ordered the same thing, the Say Yes Cocktail, costing $12.90 each. The drink has the taste of rose/lychee with some light weight sake in it. It makes for a unique drink and I quite like it.

I ordered the large Unatama, which cost $32.80 each.

My friends ordered the Hitsumabushi which cost $26.80 each.

We also ordered the Shirayaki, which is a side dish, costing $25.80 each.

We also ordered two plates of 3-piece tamagoyaki, costing $12.80 each.

We managed to finish most of our food. In my case, I couldn’t finish it all. Wasted one slice of unagi but then if I continue to eat it, I would have vomited out everything. I was that full from all the side dishes and drinks.

By the time we were done, it was already 2000hrs. The final cost of our dinner was about ~$192.

I would definitely recommend it to my friends. The unagi is soft and taste great unlike those unagi from Japanese restaurant like Ichiban Boshi or Sushi Tei. However due to the price tag and long waiting time, it may only be suitable to eat once every few months unless you have a big pocket and truly enjoy eating unagi.

Jul 16, 2017

Today I didn’t do much. As before, I spent quite a lot of time playing Cities: Skylines. Today, it was mostly me trying to deal with death waves. The worse that I have got was that I lost 30k of my city’s population due to emigration and death. Part of the emigration was caused by the landfills being 100% full, causing all garbage to pile up. I had to add more landfills while emptying out the existing ones.

I went for my first 10 kilometer run today and here is the proof.

Tomorrow will be the day I went to sign the contract for my new job and I also got some of the necessary documents for the HR to see.

Here I conclude my journal for today.