Journal #203 – Pushing it through and re-prioritize

There are days when I actually wonder what I am doing. When I’m not careful and lose focus or lose sight of what I want to do, I actually will slip into mild depression.

Three-quarters of my day from Monday to Friday are taken up by my day job, writing codes to implement features possibly used by the customer. Yes, the customer paid my company and they paid me to do a job. And that’s all it is really about. I don’t derive any meaning or purpose from it.

With that, when I finally do get home, I get so tired that I couldn’t find any inspiration to write anything. The so-called pragmatic stuff  sucked out all my imaginative creative juices. This is why documenting my day is part of my writing to ensure consistency when it comes to writing. It’s part of maintaining a habit.

Other than my day job, I do have a side hustle, doing freelance software development too, where I am primarily maintaining and enhancing a software which I built for a company years ago. Well, that too also drain what’s left of my energy and it’s why I don’t really spent a ton of time on it. I focus implementing quick fixes and call it a day. Then I get paid for it.

But that’s not to say I shouldn’t make time for writing other stuff. I still want to write a science-fiction novel and put it out there for people to read.

So that’s what I’m going to do. I am going to reduce the amount of time I spend on consuming content and spend at least an hour to two writing chunks of that science-fiction novel after I get home from work.

All of us got the same twenty-four hours and we just got to make time to do something before we regret it.


Daily Journal – Aug 11, 2017

This is my 127th journal.

Despite me sleeping at around 0200hrs, I set the alarm clock to wake me up at 0730 hrs this morning. I intended to go to my client’s office to do some more work.

I spent one quarter of my time in the client’s office doing research into domain-driven design and the rest doing code refactoring and implementation.

My activity for today aside, I noticed that I no longer have the desire to spent the next few years of my life doing software development. I don’t even feel like doing any software work now except for the sake of money. Concurrently, I’m putting my plans into action and moving myself into the creative line of work.

Anyway, I left the client’s office at around 1710hrs and went to Uniqlo @ Jurong Point. Decided to get two plain-colored T-shirts and a black sweat pants.

These are part of my minimalistic lifestyle and serve as my uniform.

I got home at around 1830hrs, showered, and waited for dinner. In the meantime, I was looking for courses on Creative Writing, and career opportunities that are not related to software development. Yes, I want to try something else now and seeing it as a career change.

After dinner, I watched season 3, episode 7 of Zoo (TV Series).

I will probably go to bed early today as I need to wake up early tomorrow for a drone piloting course that starts at 9am sharp and ends at 6pm. I will do my best to prepare the journal for tomorrow with photos and videos.

That’s all for now.

Here I conclude my journal for today.